Sooo it's Christmas, and I've been home for a little over a week. I still have about three weeks left. Since my last entry things have been mostly good, but not great either. I just took a shower in an attempt to clear my head of all that's been bothering me lately. Towards the end of school a good portion of the friends I live with (and a good portion of those I don't) seemed to be finding a new reason every day to dislike me and tell me how much I suck. It's still unclear whether or not they had a valid arguement, but nobody's ever complained about the things they did before, so I don't know if I changed or if it's a problem with them. I've chalked it up to us just having to live near each other and getting sick of everyone, which is bound to happen with anyone you live with (i.e. siblings). So I'm hoping it's that, and not that it'll continue next semester, especially since I'm gonna be living with one of them. If that's the case, then I guess I'll just be down a few friends, but it's not as though nobody up there appreciates me. I can just hang out with those that do or by myself (either suits me fine). I can't wait to get an apartment next year, preferably with Pam (although Val expressed interest too). For one I get along better with girls, but the big one is that I'll have my own room that I can just close the door to. It's not that I hated that my room was the hotspot that everyone always came to, but I'm a guy who appreciates his privacy and solitude and I wasn't getting nearly enough of that. In short, I have high hopes for next semester, but higher hopes for next year.

But that's not all for college woes. I got a letter today and it turns out I ended up getting worse grades than I thought I did. I don't want to go into the upsetting details but needless to say I'm unhappy with myself. I don't know if I'll need to retake anything but it's going to be massively depressing if I do. I just need to do better. I need to apply myself more and get more of the work done on time. This was a big downer to a day that was otherwise happy. *sigh* I suck. Anyway, like I said the rest of Christmas was good. My brothers got me Serenity and 40-Year-Old Virgin on DVD, and I got a little money from my mom. Meanwhile my brothers got a drum set and an electric guitar, it was nuts. I'm just glad I won't be here too long to have to hear them "playing" every day. All in all one of the better Christmases...Christmass...Christmasi of recent memory.

The other day I went bowling till 2AM with Colin, Angie, and Kyle. After that Colin and I hung out at the Wyomissing Diner till 4:30, I got home at 5 and was up till 6:30 catching up on "24" episodes I had missed (The new season on DVD rocks by the way, can't wait to finally watch the show on tv for once in January). I really missed those guys a lot and I look forward to hanging out with them and some others this coming week. I always thought I'd never miss home after I was at school and that's true to a point, I mean this place is okay but I really don't prefer to be here. But all the same there are just a couple of people that I really love and who are gonna make coming home every now and then worth it.

So where am I right now? Well, I don't know, I'm torn I guess. There's a lot of good going on in my life, more than there has been in a very long time. There's also some shitty things that I'm not quite sure about how they'll pan out, I guess we'll have to see. I know this is pretty much true of life at all times in one way or another, but since I don't have a whole lot to do while I'm home I resort to self-contemplation. I think I'm gonna stop here, I got all my stuff out there and now I'm gonna try to find a way to deal a little at a time. I know this wasn't as fun an entry as usual, and I know I haven't had a lot of art up lately either, I think both will be remedied next time. I think. Seeya.